Hump Day - Oh Yay!!!

Hi Friends,

Today was actually a pretty cool day. I had some unexpected news today when I got the mail. I'm not going to elaborate, but it was one of those moments where you are excited, happy, relieved, disappointed, angry and confused all at the same time. Too many emotions, too much energy. So, knowing I would pay for it later (and I am) I took my pain medication early and had at 'er with the rake. I wish I could have raked the whole yard (I was out there for 3 hours, I wish I could move that fast), but I got a quarter of it done. I even found a dead rabbit...lol. But it felt wonderful to feel the sun on my face, get dirty and sweat a little. I guess God made dirt and dirt don't hurt. I like that philosophy.

As I was working in the yard, I noticed there were some weeds to be picked. So I got down on my knees (and anyone with fibro knows, that can be a job sometimes) and dug them out. When my hands felt the earth, it felt as if half of this excess refuse that had filled me up went right from me and grounded itself into the earth. My confused feelings and emotional eruption ended and I felt happy. I was so happy I was giddy. I had a doctor appointment to go to and I didn't care less what was happening because I was so content. At first, I thought to myself, is it the medication... Then I realized I was sore, tired, sun burnt and smiling.

The doctors office didn't even kill my mood and I had to discuss scheduling surgery. Why is it when you have FM, everything leads to surgery and then ultimately cancer? That thought bothers me greatly, but then again I know what's gonna happen at the end so is it really something to be scared of? But I am going to be seeing Dr. J. Blank. He was a darling man. He has such striking blue eyes. I probably didn't mind receiving the cancer lecture because I was drowning in his eyes. Whew!!! It was like looking into a deep blue lake on a warm, sunny, calm day. He was very relaxing to be around and actually talked to me like I was human. It is such a nice feeling when you see a doctor (and with FM you see more of them than family) that actually sees you, too.

I then proceeded to reiki with Rev. Lori Harris... SHE IS AWESOME!! Obviously that went well...

Then I had a conversation with my landlord who I believe is an angel sent from God. As I am going through some of the hardest times I will ever face, he never fails to be kind, patient and loving. How can a landlord of all people be loving? Most of the time I am nervous he will evict me for something stupid. He just reminds me constantly that God has his hand on some people's shoulders and those people are here to guide us through the darkness that we face. The question is, how do I repay it? When I asked Greg he replied, when you are in a better place I hope that you return the favor to someone who needs your help when you are able to give it. I thought, that is an incredible interest plan. I've always tried to be a good Christian and have met many that say they are mainly because they go to church and keep up with their Bible studies. His acts of kindness and compassion are more than I can count and will stay in my heart forever. He is an example of how a great Christian acts. I love him for that and I love God for placing me under his wing during this complicated time.

Have a Joyous Day and God Bless!

Courtney